Ok, so I admit, I am $hitting myself. Why did I eat that bl00dy mudcake?? With only 2 more days til my next weigh in, I need to be dedicated and walk, walk, walk! It was definitely hard going for a walk tonight on my own. But I took my dogs with me...although, I had to call my hubby at the half way mark to pick up one of them who refused to go any further. It was pretty funny...
...actually, it was nice not being the most unfit person (dog?) for a change!
God that sounds so ridiculous.
Now, something else I need to improve is the amount of sleep I'm getting. I was far too tired today - I was yawning all afternoon to the point that I had a lot of trouble concentrating. Not too good.
Will definitely need to think how I'm going to address that.
Hmmmmmm.
Until next time xo
Monday, 16 May 2011
Sunday, 15 May 2011
Weigh In #2
So, it's actually been 4 days since my 2nd weigh in. I don't get it. It's that time of the month, so I KNEW I would be retaining fluid, and yet, when I didn't lose any weight this week, what did I do??? I broke the diet! Why oh why would I do that?
I'm literally sitting here shaking my head at myself. I was good all week, and just because the scales didn't move, I went ahead and got a mudcake. What a doofus!
I have to ask myself, am I really serious here? Do I really want to lose weight? Or will I run to the bakery every month and throw a tanty? How ridiculous.
So now I have 3 days until my next weigh in, and I wouldn't be surprised if I have gained weight. What a moron!
I'm so mad at myself right now.
BUT...ok, so I stuffed up. Do I give up completely just because I stuffed up the diet this weekend?
NO!
I've lost weight, I'm heading in the right direction. I just have to refocus and keep my eye on the prize...what is the prize? I still don't have a reward system.
What do I treat myself to for the first 5kg lost? Maybe that is the problem? I don't have a reward system yet. Hmmmm, food for thought (no pun intended!).
Well, this cranky cow is going to do some laundry and stop moping around the house.
Until next time xo
I'm literally sitting here shaking my head at myself. I was good all week, and just because the scales didn't move, I went ahead and got a mudcake. What a doofus!
I have to ask myself, am I really serious here? Do I really want to lose weight? Or will I run to the bakery every month and throw a tanty? How ridiculous.
So now I have 3 days until my next weigh in, and I wouldn't be surprised if I have gained weight. What a moron!
I'm so mad at myself right now.
BUT...ok, so I stuffed up. Do I give up completely just because I stuffed up the diet this weekend?
NO!
I've lost weight, I'm heading in the right direction. I just have to refocus and keep my eye on the prize...what is the prize? I still don't have a reward system.
What do I treat myself to for the first 5kg lost? Maybe that is the problem? I don't have a reward system yet. Hmmmm, food for thought (no pun intended!).
Well, this cranky cow is going to do some laundry and stop moping around the house.
Until next time xo
Thursday, 5 May 2011
Day 7 - Weigh In!
Nice walk with my mum tonight. She's going overseas for two weeks soon so I will miss having my walking buddy. When I started walking last week, I decided to walk just 20 minutes in case I had a heart attack. Mum suggested we go to the local shopping centre after work and walk around since it's airconditioned. Mum's are so smart. To my surprise, I managed 30 minutes before my right ankle decided it had had enough.
I'm surprised I can walk at all. I've been carrying so much extra weight around it's a surprise I haven't needed ankle and knee reconstructions! I've walked 30 minutes for four days this week, plus one day of leisurely walking next to a creek on the weekend. Everything I'm reading says I need to work up to at least 40 minutes five days per week. I think tonight mum and I did 35 minutes. I could have walked longer but she had to get home to cook dinner for dad.
I was very happy for my weigh in this morning. This week I lost 3.7kg (8.1lbs)! I'm not surprised as the first week is always a bumper weight loss. I still want to lose 1kg per week so that it's more likely I keep it off, and also so my super stretched skin has a chance to shrink. Really don't want to need a tummy tuck after this. I'm considering moisturising my tummy every night, but I have no medical research to base this on, just seems like something I should be doing.
If anyone has any tips for how to avoid gaining the excess-skin suit that comes with a lot of weight loss, I'd really love to hear them!
I've now lost 4.9% of my target weight loss. Damn - so close to 5%. I think maybe I should have a reward system for certain milestones. Like, when I reach 10% I can go get my nails done, or a massage. Again, if anyone has any suggestions for a rewards system, please I'd love to hear them.
One more day until the weekend. It's going to be a hard dieter's weekend. On Saturday is my nephew's 1st birthday party. Which means cake and sweets and dips and cheese and potato salad and many, many, many other things I shouldn't be eating. Hopefully I will find the willpower to say no to the food. I'm going to help host the party, so I will walk around making sure everyone has food and drinks. Hopefully by feeding others I will be too distracted to feed myself!
And then on Sunday it's Mother's Day, so more opportunities to eat what I shouldn't since we're going out for lunch. I even heard fish and chips mentioned - oh Lord!!
Wish me luck and strength!
Until next time x
I'm surprised I can walk at all. I've been carrying so much extra weight around it's a surprise I haven't needed ankle and knee reconstructions! I've walked 30 minutes for four days this week, plus one day of leisurely walking next to a creek on the weekend. Everything I'm reading says I need to work up to at least 40 minutes five days per week. I think tonight mum and I did 35 minutes. I could have walked longer but she had to get home to cook dinner for dad.
I was very happy for my weigh in this morning. This week I lost 3.7kg (8.1lbs)! I'm not surprised as the first week is always a bumper weight loss. I still want to lose 1kg per week so that it's more likely I keep it off, and also so my super stretched skin has a chance to shrink. Really don't want to need a tummy tuck after this. I'm considering moisturising my tummy every night, but I have no medical research to base this on, just seems like something I should be doing.
If anyone has any tips for how to avoid gaining the excess-skin suit that comes with a lot of weight loss, I'd really love to hear them!
I've now lost 4.9% of my target weight loss. Damn - so close to 5%. I think maybe I should have a reward system for certain milestones. Like, when I reach 10% I can go get my nails done, or a massage. Again, if anyone has any suggestions for a rewards system, please I'd love to hear them.
One more day until the weekend. It's going to be a hard dieter's weekend. On Saturday is my nephew's 1st birthday party. Which means cake and sweets and dips and cheese and potato salad and many, many, many other things I shouldn't be eating. Hopefully I will find the willpower to say no to the food. I'm going to help host the party, so I will walk around making sure everyone has food and drinks. Hopefully by feeding others I will be too distracted to feed myself!
And then on Sunday it's Mother's Day, so more opportunities to eat what I shouldn't since we're going out for lunch. I even heard fish and chips mentioned - oh Lord!!
Wish me luck and strength!
Until next time x
Tuesday, 3 May 2011
Day 5 - Quietly Confident
It's Day 5 of my mission. I'm surprised at how easy it has been to stick with the diet so far. I'm not as hungry as I thought I would be. And I'm not missing chocolate - but I think that's because I've replaced it with healthier sweet options, like fruit!
Speaking of which, I had an orange last night. A whole orange. I can't even remember the last time I ate a whole orange. Yes, I've grabbed the occassional wedge at a work lunch to add to my plate of quiches and cakes, just to appear to have some concern for the quality of food I'm eating in front of work people. But that was all for show. This was me, with a whole orange, eating it as if it were a block of chocolate and actually enjoying it!
This is progress people!
I think I've eaten more fruit in the last 5 days than I have so far this year. That's just sad.
And how delighted was I to discover in my Day 4 pack yesterday a bag of popcorn! Again, I'm not trying to promote Lite n Easy, but whoever puts together the meal plans is a genius! I'm totally happy with the variety and the fact that I still get treats!
Now I'm really looking forward to Thursday morning for my weigh in. I cheated and had a peek at the scales yesterday, even though I said I would only weigh myself weekly, and discovered I'd already lost 2kg (4.4lbs). That is 2.6% of my target weight loss gone in the first 4 days. Pretty pleased with that!
Until next time xo
Speaking of which, I had an orange last night. A whole orange. I can't even remember the last time I ate a whole orange. Yes, I've grabbed the occassional wedge at a work lunch to add to my plate of quiches and cakes, just to appear to have some concern for the quality of food I'm eating in front of work people. But that was all for show. This was me, with a whole orange, eating it as if it were a block of chocolate and actually enjoying it!
This is progress people!
I think I've eaten more fruit in the last 5 days than I have so far this year. That's just sad.
And how delighted was I to discover in my Day 4 pack yesterday a bag of popcorn! Again, I'm not trying to promote Lite n Easy, but whoever puts together the meal plans is a genius! I'm totally happy with the variety and the fact that I still get treats!
Now I'm really looking forward to Thursday morning for my weigh in. I cheated and had a peek at the scales yesterday, even though I said I would only weigh myself weekly, and discovered I'd already lost 2kg (4.4lbs). That is 2.6% of my target weight loss gone in the first 4 days. Pretty pleased with that!
Until next time xo
Monday, 2 May 2011
It all starts here - Day 4
I am on a mission. Simple as that. My goal is to halve my body weight. Sounds drastic...but considering I weigh exactly twice what I should, and admittedly, twice what I used to weigh...well, it doesn't sound so drastic all of a sudden.
But how, and I mean HOW, did this happen? How did I let myself literally double in size? Well, it's a simple formula: eat more + exercise less = gain weight. The reasons I succumbed to this formula is not relevant. We all have our reasons,and I'm no different.
The point is, I'm 29, 5'8" and weigh...drum roll please...150.6kg (which is 331.3lbs for those who were reaching for a calculator). I used to weigh 70-75kg (154-165lbs). So my mission, which I choose to accept, is to lose 75kg...or half of Heidi.
That's me. Heidi. Obviously.
How am I going to do it? Well, considering it took me a few years to put on the weight, I'm guessing it will take a few years to lose it. And because I want to avoid losing weight but gaining an excess-skin suit, I really do need to take things slowly.
My goal is 1kg per week. I'm going to be realistic. There will be times when I give in and eat a whole mudcake to myself (yes, I've done that many times before - oh the shame). There will be times I will regain weight, because let's face it, women fluctuate naturally every month - if you hear what I'm saying?
I don't know why I believe that this time will be different. You see, I've been on a bazillion diets. I've counted calories, I've consumed litres and litres of diet shakes, I've stopped eating carbs, I've stopped eating, period!
I feel different this time. Like I woke up one day and decided enough is enough. Yes, I enjoyed every second of putting on weight. I'm serious. I have enjoyed a lot of food. I wanted it, I ate it. It was a very liberating way to live. But it seems that there are consequences for living with such abandon. Not just being overweight (or obese in my case), but all the health problems that come with it. But that too is not what this post is about.
This post is about starting. Starting everything. Starting to care, starting to exercise, starting to eat right, starting to lose weight, starting to put my health first.
So, back to how I'm going to do it. Technically today is Day 4. I've started Lite n Easy. I'm loving the whole concept of lunch and dinner provided, and so much variety. I'm not advocating Lite n Easy as the best way, or the only way, but it's the way I'm going to do it. It fits into my lifestyle and I don't have to count calories or think about what to eat now or next or later or tomorrow. It's all packed up and delivered to me. It's the lazy person's way to diet. No, no that's not fair, it's the busy person's way to diet. The busy person who hasn't cooked for a long, long time.
Let's talk about that for a moment. I'm not going to say I'm too busy to cook, or to exercise. That would be a total cop out - an out and out lie. I read something, somewhere (really need to find out where) that totally hit home for me: "I'm not too busy to do housework. I just choose to do things I enjoy instead". And the same is true for me...for housework, cooking and exercising. But here's the thing, the surprise. I started exercising last week, and rediscovered how much I enjoy it. Why haven't I been exercising all these years?
Yes, there's a reason for that too. But always, always, always, not the point of this post. Maybe another time.
So, three more days til I weigh in. Fingers crossed my 1200 calorie + exercise plan = weight loss.
Until next time x
But how, and I mean HOW, did this happen? How did I let myself literally double in size? Well, it's a simple formula: eat more + exercise less = gain weight. The reasons I succumbed to this formula is not relevant. We all have our reasons,and I'm no different.
The point is, I'm 29, 5'8" and weigh...drum roll please...150.6kg (which is 331.3lbs for those who were reaching for a calculator). I used to weigh 70-75kg (154-165lbs). So my mission, which I choose to accept, is to lose 75kg...or half of Heidi.
That's me. Heidi. Obviously.
How am I going to do it? Well, considering it took me a few years to put on the weight, I'm guessing it will take a few years to lose it. And because I want to avoid losing weight but gaining an excess-skin suit, I really do need to take things slowly.
My goal is 1kg per week. I'm going to be realistic. There will be times when I give in and eat a whole mudcake to myself (yes, I've done that many times before - oh the shame). There will be times I will regain weight, because let's face it, women fluctuate naturally every month - if you hear what I'm saying?
I don't know why I believe that this time will be different. You see, I've been on a bazillion diets. I've counted calories, I've consumed litres and litres of diet shakes, I've stopped eating carbs, I've stopped eating, period!
I feel different this time. Like I woke up one day and decided enough is enough. Yes, I enjoyed every second of putting on weight. I'm serious. I have enjoyed a lot of food. I wanted it, I ate it. It was a very liberating way to live. But it seems that there are consequences for living with such abandon. Not just being overweight (or obese in my case), but all the health problems that come with it. But that too is not what this post is about.
This post is about starting. Starting everything. Starting to care, starting to exercise, starting to eat right, starting to lose weight, starting to put my health first.
So, back to how I'm going to do it. Technically today is Day 4. I've started Lite n Easy. I'm loving the whole concept of lunch and dinner provided, and so much variety. I'm not advocating Lite n Easy as the best way, or the only way, but it's the way I'm going to do it. It fits into my lifestyle and I don't have to count calories or think about what to eat now or next or later or tomorrow. It's all packed up and delivered to me. It's the lazy person's way to diet. No, no that's not fair, it's the busy person's way to diet. The busy person who hasn't cooked for a long, long time.
Let's talk about that for a moment. I'm not going to say I'm too busy to cook, or to exercise. That would be a total cop out - an out and out lie. I read something, somewhere (really need to find out where) that totally hit home for me: "I'm not too busy to do housework. I just choose to do things I enjoy instead". And the same is true for me...for housework, cooking and exercising. But here's the thing, the surprise. I started exercising last week, and rediscovered how much I enjoy it. Why haven't I been exercising all these years?
Yes, there's a reason for that too. But always, always, always, not the point of this post. Maybe another time.
So, three more days til I weigh in. Fingers crossed my 1200 calorie + exercise plan = weight loss.
Until next time x
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